Thursday, November 21, 2013
I write this after what has been an emotional roller coaster of a week. One minute I fight my nerves, as I second guess every answer I gave, every word written. I know I have done the best I could do. I have been myself, that's all I can do. But is my best good enough. The next minute is filled with anxious excitement as I wait to hear. I think of the possibilities, the years I have tried and failed to make it through and how all of the Nos, makes this years yes that much more special.
And yet I find it has been an exhausting past couple of weeks. Perhaps the emotions have gotten to me. It is something I never thought about it from that point, just how exhausting the search, the desire the waiting can be.
I look forward to knowing, either way I am proud of myself. And if it is not my year, then you better believe I shall be back.