Have you met Nick and Stacy? Neither have I. But according to Logan they are his brother and sister. And he has been campaigning pretty hard lately for them to appear. And by this I mean he is going around to everyone from my parents, to our favorite waitresses to even perfect strangers telling them all about the two. Yes, he has named them. Which of course leads many to ask the question, are we expecting? After all if you listen to my four year old son, we should be having one within in the next three weeks.
For the record, we aren’t.
Now I expected to feel the pressure from my family, from friends even the occasional coworkers who seem to be questioning on a daily basis anymore. But my own son? Not so much. And I don’t know how to deal with it. Not anymore anyway. This was made even clearer when Anderson and I were throwing out some of Logan’s old baby things; the swings, the stroller, all things we loved and cherished so much. As I watched Andy walk out the door his hands full, it was not I who stopped him, but little man himself crying out to stop because that was for the other babies. He asked me again when they were going to get here. He wants them to come and play.
It just about broke my heart.
This is also not the first time Nick and Stacy have been brought up. In fact they have been brought up by him for the better part of two years now. He sat me down one evening and told me he wanted to have a conversation about a brother or sister, if it is a brother it shall be Nick, if it’s a girl I would like Stacy. In those exact words. At two, this frightened me. At four I wonder how he even knew the word conversation. I have to say I pity the party he runs against should he decide to run for anything. He is if nothing more, pretty persistent. He also puts on one hell of a great battle campaign. Believe me, it has not been easy to tell him no.
No, we have not ruled out the thought of another child. If you were to ask me I would tell you I would love to have another one. But things get in the way, unexpected major surgeries, recover time. School. Before you know it one year turns into the next. And your son still remains an only child.
I do not know what the future holds; I do not have an answer at the moment one way or another.
But if you ask Logan it better include a sibling…