From the puck to the world.

My grandmother doesn't seem to be doing well at all. Hospice has agreed to come in and take over to help aide my grandfather, who can't take care of his wife anymore. Its a sad thing, knowing they are there. While it is for her benefit and to help her out, at the same time, you know this has to be the end. Or at least the beginning of the end. I say this, only because hospice came in the aid of my grandfather tate during his last few months on earth. my aunt, says she doesn't think this is true, that my grandmother can get better and will once again thrive but if you saw her. The state of her, you would know otherwise. She is down to just about 70 pounds. she isn't eating anymore and she is barely moving. In a lot of ways, I think she has made her peace with things and is just waiting. i say that when she is done and when she is ready she will decide its time to let go. whether that may be tomorrow or next month only time will tell.

but i do say, it isn't easy. knowing that we could very well be down to the last few times with her. its hard to remember her the way she was once upon a time. decades ago, when she was so alive and so happy. if you saw her today, you wouldn't recognize her. she is barely the grandmother i remember. it is so sad.

while i am not a truly religious person. i believe in god. i believe in the afterlife and a much better place than the one here on earth. but because i am not very spiritual. this next part may surprise one.

but the only thing i do ask is that the lord help her during this time of her life. may he guard her and take her under his wing and guide her into the transition. may he let her go peacefully and without pain.

and may he welcome her with open arms when she decided to part from earth, and rise into heaven.

because from here on out, she is in the lords hand.