had our first appointment this morning. all looks really good and is smooth sailing....everything looks where they should be, and clean. which is a good thing. and yes there is a baby. which is the most important thing because really, that is what we were there for so it was good to see.

and it was also a realization. i mean yes, we can take a pee test, and get a positive result and you can feel like you are. but until you see it on the screen? well that is totally different. its like wow, its actually there. its actually happened.

and it is a great feeling....

to be honest.

i would like to say i am feeling better. but its just not happening right now. in fact, in many ways i would say its getting worse. those tacos i had let me tell you, i dont think they are going to be exactly great if they happen to come back up. though i am hoping they dont.

and i am trying to hang in there. working full time is making it difficult. trying to hide from everyone right now and feeling the way i do isnt exactly the easiest thing for me but im trying. i dont know if i will be able to hide it past vero which is coming up in just about a month from next week. by that point, we will be entering our second trimester and hope to be in the clear.

though the way i feel. well i dont know if thats going to possible.
but i may surprise myself. i am fortunate. most of my coworkers are in and out for the next month. and most are male. though that may not have anything to do with them. and they could notice just as much as women do. though andy says he would be surprised if they notice anything.

still running to the bathroom every hour or less may give them a pretty clear clue.

We shall see.

the cat is out of the bag to both burgandy and hillary. we told them this afternoon, hillary in person. and burgandy over speakerphone. they were both excited. this will make the third time for burgandy aunt wise. and hillary's first.

i dont know who was more excited of the two.

Just liked to say.

Welcome to the first day of Summer.

Shine on!

I feel like shit. Seriously. I would love to be able to candy code it with how great it is, and how much I am enjoying it. But right now. Well right now I feel to sick to even think about how great its going to be. How I feel as though, when I eat I am going to get sick. And when I don't I am going to get sick. I just feel sick to my stomach twenty four seven. And I wonder if this is normal? I keep hoping that after the first trimester it will be better. And I am sure it will. After all, how many people say the first few months of the pregnancy is the hardest. They also say this about marriage as well.

I don't see how people can do this eighteen times. That blows my mind. I am just trying to survive and manage my first not even thinking of the others. And I commend them for being strong enough to deal with the sickness, the feeling and all for that long.

Because really all I want to do right now is just go to bed. Or get better. Don't get me wrong. I am excited. And i am looking forward to it all. The experience. I think its going to be incredible. But what you don't hear about. What people don't tell you is how much you feel like you have a major case of the flu. They don't tell you you aren't going to feel like yourself for three months.

Because if they did, how many people would sign up?

Truthfully.

Though maybe its the hormones that are making me bitch.

We are now entering week 6. Nothing major at the moment. Though I have been pretty nauseas and had a major headache throughout still....but I hear to wait. That the most will be coming up within the next few weeks. Unless I am lucky. Not thinking about it. Just will let it come as it comes, and let nature takes it course whatever that may be. Andys father told us to enjoy it and experience everything we can for there will only be a first time. So that is exactly what we are doing.

Even Andy has gotten into it. Picking up What to Expect when Expecting.....

I don't know who is more fascinated with it.

Him or myself.

So both sets of parents know. Both were very happy. Ecstatic to be more precise. Andy's father just about cried and his jaw dropped to th ground, his mother of course was thrilled but said she suspected something when we said we had a hidden motive . While my mom couldn't believe her baby was having a baby, and my dad totally missed the announcement the first time.

We are waiting til after the 30th, when our first doctors appointment gives us the clear to tell the rest of the gang.

We are sure they will be just as thrilled.

And while we had a lot of emotions last week. This weekend, we are actually generally excited.

Thank God.

big night for the caps

Congratulations to the Washington Capitals who took home three key awards this evening in the NHL awards.

Alex Ovechknin won The Hart, The Pearson, Ross and Richard awards.

and Bruce Boudreau won for Coach of the year. (Adams)

While it was almost a given that Ovechkin was going to win the four, Bruce on the hand was a 50/50 according to many. So it was a pleasant but deserved win.

Thanks for bringing home the metal.

isnt it funny, how with one little test. everything you know about your future changes...

just like that...

and suddenly.

its not just about you anymore

my period was due last weekend. to begin with i didnt think anything of it. because well, for me ive been irregular off and on throughout my entire 'womanhood.' but by friday night, i have to admit i was getting pretty nervous. and suspicious.

i didnt say anything to andy. i had my own thoughts. we went out and bought baby shower gifts and went. talking about babies and futures and what not. all the while in the back of my mind i could think of nothing else but the fact i very well may be expecting myself.

and on the way home, i made andy stop at the local cvs. and when we got home, i ran straight to the bathroom to take the pee test.

and the result?

postive.

we are pregnant

it came as a shock, because we have been told by so many people that it usually never happens on the first try. and yet this was exactly our first try.

and wala....

but believe me.....

it was/is a pleasant surprise.

i find i could have some interesting news within the next few days.

i shall leave you in suspense and tell you to..

just stay tuned.

now that summer is here, television has gone to the shithole. or at least you would think. now and days however, reality tv has taken over and given us all the joy of summer delight. you have your dancing shows, you bachelor shows. you have your funny game shows and new dramas that hope to make it to primetime lineups in the fall.

and who can forget the return of american gladiators.

really how many people didnt watch that in the eighties?

and the best part about the whole show

the return of the tight blue spandex!

Cool News.

On the way home last night Andy and I sat in traffic talking about our day as usual. Me, with my DC job, and Andy with his job for the Washington Capitals. As usual I didn't have much to report. I never truly do. I come in, I do my thing and leave. Andy on the other hand always seems to have something interesting. A player came in. He got to do this for the big boss. He gets to design some of the coolest things for the team. Like the Young Guns poster he was so proud of. Anyway. So last night he was talking as he usually does about office politics and what not. And then he slides in some of the biggest (and coolest in my opinion) news. He gets to design the 2008 Southeast Division champions banner that the Caps will proudly display in the stadium from this fall until the end of time. My HUSBAND gets to do that!

What more honor could he want? A Stanley Cup one perhaps? That will come. In the next year or two.

But until then. To know he gets to say he did that. And every time we return to the arena. Whether it be as an employee or simply as a fan.

He will forever be able to say. He did that.

so its confirmed. everyone loves my hair. from coworkers, to my husband to the guy at the local store where i get my sodas in the afternoon. isnt it amazing how much something of a change can do. how people that would never would have thought to notice you, suddenly notice you.

its nice though. i have to admit it is.

one should dif. do it more often.

sometimes. a change is incredible. so i took the leap. and cut off my hair. and i love it. but what is even more amazing. is what a simple haircut change can do to someone. i walked in to the office and it was as if i wasnt that awkward looking girl anymore but beautiful. and everyone told me how great it looks.

here to all those trendsetters!